"You are retarded." Probably not the nicest thing for me to say to a guest at my house but this girl honestly made me want to beat her with my cane that I stole from work. (My clients are from the cast of "Golden Girls") I do not understand why girls can be so slutty and asinine and think it is cute or that guys are attracted to it. I think I enjoyed the awkward silence more than anything tonight and the instantaneous texting among her and her friend of "did he really just say that?" that resulted from my comment. That and my friend Chris laughing hysterically as I continued to just watch the movie.

Typically I am a lot kinder of a person. I have more compassion and sympathy than I should, but I believe what set me off is a talk I had with my friend the other night. I love my friends but we are extremely close and flirt constantly. It is meaningless and the most frustrating thing about it is that no matter how special any of them could be nothing will happen because neither one will take the other one seriously. So these two girls coming to my house and just flirting constantly annoyed me until I could not contain my inhibitions any longer. I am not proud that I did what I did, but in a way this broad deserved it. Please don't leave a comment if this makes any of you feel butt hurt.

Well I think I'm going to start writing in this more often. But I'm tired and I want to read before I go to bed. Goodnight darling.